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There is a woman whom I speak with daily, have bared more of my soul to, and who has captured my heart so fully that I fear I shall never again love as openly and unabashed as I do her. And we've never met... Now in some cases this would seem odd, but in this day and age, so many have made strong ties to others through the internet, and few think little of distance anymore. But that is not why I fear a curse. No, I could easily cope with distance, and have in the past, and while I do not crave sexual intimacy with my love, I do wish to hold her.. to interlock fingers and rest my head against her. But she does not return those feelings.. and

They say pain is a great motivater, but thats bullshit. Pain is a drug, an addiction something that ruins lives. Pain makes my colors brighter, the sounds sharper, the tastes more vibrate, With an ache in my heart the worlds moves slower and faster all at the same time. When I'm the most broken, that is when I am the most creative. Some of my best work is when I am on the verge of throwing in the towel. But worst of all, when I am in pain, that is when I am close to my Goddess. That moment after I have lifted my head from the floor, curled my body into a ball, and closed my eyes, that is when I feel her embrace the strongest. And tha

Walking on eggshells when ever you are home constantly wondering what I will do wrong next trapped in a situation I cannot yet escape my fears are growing with each mood swing. I move like a shadow in the night when you sleep yet my noctural patterns are not respected at all you give me lists of things I 'must' do yet constantly forget that which I ask if you "could" do I am confined to my own room for fear of somehow disturbing 'your' space, your time, your everything. I cannot keep living this way, I am liable to lose my mind. Gods help me if I have not already done so. I cannot find my voice, for fear of what I might say to upset your

A is for Angel of which we have a lot B is for Bub who is Matt in case you forgot C is for Crowley Matt's enemy til the end D is for Death who is a rather kind friend E is for Eve who likes to write F is for Famine, who like likes to fight G is for Gabriel the healer ever so smart H is for Hanna who is tender in heart I is for Ivy-Rose who is Michael's wife J is for Jessie for who Books are her life K is for Kayla or Jinx just as well L is for Lucifer the King of Hell M is for Michael,who's twin is Jude N is for North, that's Miles one cool dude O is for Orphan which Corban once was P is for Pestilance who's mind is fuzz Q is for Queen drag

I am a coward 'I love  you' why is it so hard to say?   'I love  you' There I said it again! But when I'm talking to you the words can't form.   My brain shuts down, panic sets in. Because I can't even think about what would happen if you rejected me. So I lie, and don't bring it up. Because that is what's safe. And I am a coward

I realized today, in possibly the saddest way, that I am in love. Normally this would fill me with the typical school girl bull shit gittiness that comes along with being in love. The butterflies in the stomach, the floaty walk, the sighing for no reason. But not today, today is sadly different Because today I also realized that while I may be in love, this person, is very very far away, this person is not the same sexual orientation as me, and will most likely never love me back. I want to cry about it, this love I will never have returned But, I know crying won't make it better, and addressing the fact will only make things awkward for